JAN 17
killing the white devil in all its forms, stroke it out of your body.

followed by a long gap in entries




OCT 10
white perimeter around figure to seperate him from the memory background

fresh memory 2008
remembered 2009
by 2010 is degraded

important to remember
not only do you take in light, sound, touch and smell, but you take in self aswell. you were there and your mindset will get imprinted along with the rest of the stimuli. Random angry memories? ow.



OCT 3

It is like a cassette- not just that the cassette is played a lot making it worn, but that it records outside noise when it is played back. all of the outside interference that is recorded dilutes and degrades the memory; replacing details and


your memory is worse at encoding at night time, or in the dark cause you need light and colour to build memories. Sounds and smells can trigger memories, but arent recalled as easily as light, surface and colour that make up an image are.

not only does my memory have a cell that remembers the camper van, but i have an entirely different cell that remembers the 1980 Dodge Camper van. This is the case for all of the elements of an experience we remember. Facial and environmental recognition, as well as personality and tone recognition, are a few different elements we tend to remember about something or someone.
There are those left without the ability to remember faces, or get lost easily because have bad direction- they can never re-trace their steps. This is an abnormal failure in the memory. Normal failures in memory are earned over time, by constant recollection of an event, or b your brain disposing of the memories of an event, so on...

OCT 2
As you experience life, you are recognizing patterns- the tones with which you mother talks, the colours of a class room, the position of a doorknob- its how you remember things, so that you dont have to relive the frustrating experience of relearning things all the time. i know where the lightswitch in the bathroom is and can instinctually reach out and flick it with out looking at it. i've recently moved to an apartment where the lightswitch is on the other side of the door in the bathroom- and i still reach for the other side. im still "getting used" to the switch being on the other side.

as the information picked up by your eyes, ears, mouth, nose and skin (touch) reaches your brain, it is filtered thru an part of the brain that absorbs the information, to be recalled later when triggered or needed.

Music is especially good at triggering memories because it has a solid framework for the brain to latch onto- takes less effort to reconstruct a memory. Music exists out side of the brain, and like everything else, is made up of patterns, which can be recreated very easily- either as a recital or playing a recording. Listening to a song youve always enjoyed throughout your life can actualy muddle the different memories associated with the song. If you hear a song now you listened to while driving in the van, your memory is triggered into being, and since it has the support of the outside-the-brain source, the song, the memory can form more truthfuly and easily.

Listening to an album youve heard many times, at the end of each song you will anticipate the beginning of the next song, without trying to- it happens so effortlessly that you barely notice it.

As you drive, patterns flash before you, are recognized and stored and soon forgotten, and music blares out of the van.

Re-cognizing the patterns in things, is to conjure them into your mind once again, after you've known them.
and it hurts but you don't notice it- and that is how life is.